January 2010
You have no idea
how easily you make my smile.
Laura Izibor- Carousel.
Enough is enough, Maxine.
Stop it. Stop it right now. Stop thinking so much. Stop taking something little and turning it into some huge thing. Stop being so goddamn insecure. You’re a good fucking person, so stop thinking that you’re doing everything wrong. If he’s not answering you, then that’s his fucking problem, and you just move on and do something else. Don’t dwell on it. Get a BACKBONE....
I need to stop letting myself get overwhelmed. I think too goddamn much. Damn hormones. _ _;
You confuse me
and make my heart hurt..
I don’t smoke pot, or anything else for that matter.. but I’ve heard that it’s super relaxing to just lay back and smoke a joint and listen to music. I could use that right now. Take my mind off of things.
I’m trying. GOD I’m trying. I’m trying to be optimistic.
I’m trying not to jump to conclusions.
I’m trying to breathe.
Just. Breathe. In, out, in, out..
Merx: So how are you doing, Copics? Did getting your nephew Copics go well Copics? I remember lock ins.
Merx: ...Copics.
Lex: fuck
Lex: you
Merx: -Geeks out-
Lex: with a copic
Merx: OH YEAH BBY. All.
Merx: Night.
Merx: Long.
Merx: :B
Lex: siiiigh
Lex: tuesdayyyyy
yerawizardharry:
jonwithabullet:
Coldplay -...
Listen
Okay so I miss you.
I wish I felt like you missed me even a fraction as much as I miss you. Though, it is understandable, we were in each others presence constantly, for 8 days. Time apart is good. And not to mention, you’ve never been one to show your emotions a ton. Also, fyi, I’m probably only feeling like I am lately because it’s almost that time of the month. But at this...
It’s not so much that you lied to me about still smoking, I mean.. I smelled the smoke on you.. I SORT of figured. It’s more that you lied to me at all. I know you don’t want to disappoint me, and all, and that you HAVE cut back.. and believe me, I’m SO! proud of you, but. I want us to be honest with each other. I want to KNOW. Because if you lie about something like a...
My New Years Resolution is
to be more positive and optimistic, and to not jump to conclusions or overthink things as much. :3.
I’m here without you baby, but you’re still with me in my dreams, and tonight, it’s only you and me.
Meh. ;-;.. -Feels sort of crappy today, and unloved.-
Sorry,
I’ll try to be more optimistic. And happy. It’s just thinking about the fact that you’re leaving soon, sort of makes me pretty sad. It’s hard to be all :DDD When I feel like all I want to do is lay around and hug onto you because I know this’ll be the last time I can for quite a while. Why can’t you understand that? I’m not trying to be some sappy romantic...
Someday, hopefully soon, I’m going to leave. I’m just going to pick up, and leave, and you’re going to be sitting around not knowing what to do with yourself since you won’t have anyone to torture. And if I find out you’re even harder on him after I leave, I’ll come back, and I’ll take him too. And you’ll be left alone. You will die alone. Sad,...